I have a confession to make about my sexuality that nobody knows about, I had sex with two different guys. I love sucking cock, feeling it entering my mouth, and sliding down my throat. It turns me on just thinking about licking a meaty shaft while pre-cum oozing out of the head.

Nothing feels so right as being on my knees in front of a guy unbuckling his pants before putting his semi-hard cock into my mouth, sucking on it until feeling delicious hot cum hitting the back of my throat as I swallow it down. That is not all I like either and I also find it to be enjoyable to be fucked by them too. Feeling two strong hands holding onto me as a nice hard cock enters my ass, fucking me hard and fast. 

I've got another secret to tell, I am not exactly gay and have never been attracted to men at all. I do like having sex with them. It is not the man that I want, but his cock. I noticed how different it felt from my own when I masturbated. It doesn’t feel wrong to hold a guy's dick in my hand as I jerk him off.

I find a man's cock to be just as attractive as a beautiful woman. How did a straight guy like myself come to love being used by men sexually and fantasize about them? First, let me tell you about one of my fantasies to show you how big of a cock whore I am. 

I want to be in a room with ten men as they strip me down naked. I love being the only one naked in a room with all eyes on me. They bend me over a small table and tie me to it. Five of them take turns fucking me in the ass while the other five are fucking my mouth. I love the feel of my ass being pounded and having men cumming inside me. The faster I am fucked the better it feels and having it done five times in a row would send me over the top in pleasure. 

Now, how did I get this way you might ask? And I will tell you just how. I was invited to a friend's house when I was seventeen because he wanted to show me something. When I arrived, no one else was there besides him and we had the house to ourselves. He wanted to show me a movie about strippers that showed a lot of tits and ass.  I agreed to watch it with him, and it started well. I could sense what he truly wanted and knew he was trying to seduce me.

After a few minutes, he casually asked, “Do you want to jerk off while watching this movie?”

I knew where this was leading, but I played dumb. For some reason, I was ok with this, and even though I wasn’t into guys part of me wanted it to happen. We unbuttoned our pants and pulled out our cocks before we started jerking off. Seeing that I was ok with touching myself when he was right next to me gave him the courage to push things a little further.

“You know jerking off is a lot better when someone else is doing it. I could touch yours while you are touching mine?” He said boldly.

I quickly agreed and we started stroking each other cocks. It felt good in my hand, and this is when I first noticed how different it felt to touch another guy's dick than my own. For some reason, I found it more pleasurable to jerk someone else off than myself. Even though I enjoyed doing this to someone I also noticed how much better it feels to have someone else jerking me off. We stroked each other cocks for a few seconds before he led me into his bedroom where things went even further.

I sat on his bed as he undressed in front of me before he said, “If you suck my dick, I will suck yours, and we can take turns fucking each other.”

It didn’t take much convincing for me to agree to it and lean forward taking his cock into my mouth. I only sucked on it for a few seconds and was surprised by how natural it felt. Nothing felt righter than having his hard meaty flesh between my lips. When it was his turn, I undressed before experiencing my first time having my dick sucked. It was okay and only lasted a few seconds before he bent me over the bed and started fucking me. The feel of his hard cock entering me hurt at first, but the pain didn’t last long.

He started slow and ended up pounding my ass fast. I had an intense orgasm from being fucked by him and knew I would do this again. I discovered he was a one-sided lover when it was my turn to fuck him. Whenever I placed my cock against his asshole would start to giggle and say, “That tickle.” I knew he was lying and had no interest in being fuck by me.

I did not care because I just discovered the joy of being a bottom and found it was more pleasurable than being with a girl. We fucked a few more times in the next few months before our secret relationship ended. He was a strange guy and didn’t have a problem fucking me, but he wouldn’t kiss me because he thought it was gay.

I wasn’t into oral until after my second male lover that I met some years later on the internet. He was an older guy who was twice my age and when he told me he was gay I lied about being one as well. I wasn’t gay but was a little horny not having a girlfriend in a while. He was excited to hear that and wanted me to stay the weekend with him. I didn’t care what the person's sex was as long as I had sex and wanted to experience being with a guy again.

We met at a gas station before he drove us to his place several towns over into the next state. He was an okay-looking guy with salt-and-pepper hair with a goatee that he kept neatly trimmed. Not wanting to reveal his real name will call him Jason. Jason was the type of person who avoided doing unhealthy things during sex like anal sex and swallowing cum.

The first thing we did after getting to his place was a full-body massage. I never had one before and it was an erotic experience for me. I lay on a table with only a towel covering me as he rubbed my body with massage oil. When he was done asked me if he could remove the towel to finish the massage and I told him that he could. He pulled away the towel revealing my hard cock and I found it arousing to be naked in front of a fully clothed man.

Jason massages my balls and the shaft of my cock gently. I closed my eyes as he took my dick in one hand and rubbed the head of my cock with the other. Once the massage was over, he started stroking me until I came and shot cum all over my stomach. We took a shower together and we made out for a few minutes as he washed the oil from my body. It felt exciting being on my knees in the water sucking his dick. I didn’t feel one ounce of shame from what I was doing and just gave into sexual pleasure.

In his bed, I learn there were many ways that two men could have sex besides anal. Jason put all his focus on pleasing me first before himself and made love to me. It was the first time I ever experienced sex like this. I had fucked girls and been fucked by a guy, but this was something better by far than those two experiences.

We kiss, he licks and suck on my nipple before lowering his mouth to my cock. I didn’t want this experience to ever end feeling his expert lips around my dick. No one had ever made me so hard, and he was about to make me cum. Pushing my legs apart climb between them with his dick on top of mine as he rubbed them against each other. I got a sense of how a woman must have felt like being fucked by a man.

We kiss as he thrusts his hips against me while my hands claw at his back before moving them down to his ass as he fucked me. I never felt anything so right and good in my life. He rolled off me after we both came, and I could feel our semen smear together on my belly.

Months later we were still seeing each other, and he didn’t mind I didn’t want anything more than sex from him. We would spend the day doing whatever we wanted and by the time we went to bed we had sex. He was a gentle lover but after a while, I wanted things to be a little more forceful. Not in a bad way and more in a kinky way. The type of thing I began desiring was being fucked against an open window with my naked body pressing against the glass as people watch. Another thing was him coming behind me grabbing my cock before pushing down my pants and fucked me against a table.

One morning after waking up found myself aroused and wanted to have sex. Since Jason was lying beside me naked, I took my chance and slid down to his soft cock. It felt great being naked with him, I began sucking his dick and I could feel it growing in my mouth. I heard him groan and grunt from the pleasure I was giving him. He usually stopped me before cumming but he didn’t this time. I felt his hot cum hitting the back of my throat. I swallowed with pleasure and kept on sucking every inch of his sperm down my throat. I had never been so turned on in my entire life and became addicted to giving blowjob that morning.

I started fantasizing sucking a line of dicks after that day and could not get enough of it. Who knew swallowing a load of cum could turn a guy into a cocksucker? To this very day, the thought of some guy's cock makes me hard, and I want to suck it until my mouth is full of his cum. Every once in a while, I have to find a good gay porn movie where a straight guy is seduced into having gay sex to satisfy my cock craving. Those nights I would jerk myself off until I shoot cum all over my belly. On a good night, I will do it two to three times before falling asleep.